忘了我还记得

时间，过去。
感情还强烈
但是，我要画上界限

谢谢你一路来的关怀，陪伴。
感激你对我如此慷慨。
今晚起，我要试着不再去想你，
不再去爱你。

就当那天相遇，是我见心爱的人最后一面
以后再见面，也不会用如此的心情去面对。

至少我们之中，还有人是幸福的。
就足够了~
希望往后的日子，多多保重。
我会守护着你 =)

yee~好累，睡觉！

你的幸福比任何东西都来得重要 =)

一路走来点点滴滴，
我记得好清楚。
说过的话，许下的承诺。
还是很清晰。

快乐吗？好想知道，却又害怕知道答案。
哈哈

好久没看见你，开始想念你了。
你的任性，你的长发，还有最喜欢的嘴唇
好想见到你

无论任何地方，我都在你身旁。
这种坚决，无人可比 =)

Living life like no other

Finally, after a long run
Things started to slow down a bit.

I caught a bad cough lately,
Which I think somehow hurt my throat.
It gets itchy sometimes.
I want to scratch it! Grr~

Recently started to get this feeling again.
My life is going to change again.
A new environment,
A new start,
A new feelings.

Perhaps it's better for me.
Unless it won't make me think too much again.
And yes, I still likes you.

Started to get thinner lately,
Maybe it's because of the tiring days.
Mom is going to be pissed off again~ Haha
I love you mom =)
Feed me when I'm back home XD

因该是

我太过依赖了

我害怕失去，却不知道是不是拥有的

我小气，却发现自己好孩子气，好愚蠢

但是全都真正发生过

今天又犯贱了

多多包涵。

Small little sun on your small little palm

Some people you can't tell what they're good, but that someone cannot be replaced.

Sweet memories, Bitter memories.
It is time to move on I guess.

You might stop, but time doesn't.
We'd just have to move on.

Mom and dad,
this is your son i guess.
Thank you for bringing this little mars guy to this world.
For the sake of all the people who knew me.
Hahaha, perhaps without me,
some of the sweet memories wouldn't have appeared.
Thank you so much. Love you both.

I know sometime
Time will take away a lot of things from me.
I also know
That nothing cannot be healed with time.

Sometimes when I'm alone,
I tremble in fear.
Thinking about the future.

Sigh~
But future is filled with possibilities.
With a little bit of luck and a little bit of hope
And A LOT of hardwork
Things that you want might actually came true.

Close my eyes,
Make a wish,
Future lies,
Within reach.

Say goodbye once more, and good night~

I've never regretted

Today,
This place was found out.

I've never knew this day would come.

And how much this little beautiful garden of mine
Has been the most sorrowful place for you.

I thought I will never let you feel worried
I thought I will never let you feel guilty
But in the end, I've did it again.

We rather blame ourself sometimes
I just wanted to tell you,
You are not wrong.
Neither am I.

I never regretted loving you.
You are the next most special thing that ever came into my life.
Thanks for being in my life.
And this time, its not for this few years.
It's for a lifetime.

You will forever be my best thing that ever happen to me.
I don't care what others might think.
But you will forever be in the left side of my beating heart

Let's not make our promises last for one month.
Let's extend it for eternity.

There is a hurtful sentence in the previous post i know.
That I said I started to fake my smiles
Do you know why?
Because i don't know whether what i'm doing now is right.
Now everything is clear to me.
Maybe it's clear from the very start.

Dear XX, After reading this post
I think you will start to understand.
I promise you that i will forever be the right side for you.
When you ever feel down, hurt, sad
Or be it happiness, success or even failure.
I'm always right by your side.

Therefore, don't stop your footsteps. Keep going.
For I will forever give you the best wishes anywhere I am.
Remember that thing that i wanted you to do?
That you promised me when i answered that question?

Now i would like to use the wish.
"I wish you to stay happy, Always"

Had a long rest, back to blogging

Leaving my blog for 4 months.
Because a lot has happened lately.

At last, I've made up my mind to tell her.
Even though I know what my endings would be.
I've promised her to be good.
She promised me to be happy.
We promised each other to let fate decides.

But what we really knew is,
We are never meant to be together.

Maybe it is because of my decision to stay with you
Until the very last.

And finally, this has already been the last month
I promised myself,
to be happy,
let her be happy.
Even though i can't keep the smile
But at least when we leave,
we might still be smiling.

Love is a desert without boundary
And i'm just one of the people who trapped inside.
There is a kind of love,
When we are neither able to pick up nor put down.
We let ourself to be sad
But in the end, we noticed that the one being sad is only ourself
We let ourself to hate,
But in the end, we noticed that the one we hate is ourself.

I don't know what i can't put down to be exact.
If you asked me what makes me so into her
I might have said, I just like her. There is no reason.
But in the end, we noticed,
We have all the reason in the world to give up.
Because you are in love with her.

Like what my friend has told me.
Flip a coin when you feel you can't decide.
It's not that the heads or tails that decide it for you
It's that when you flip the coin, the answer you wanted is already decided.

I did.
I can't let go.
Why not let love stops at the most beautiful moment?

Chance?
Future?
Let's not get so far my friend.
If I can't even decide my present,
How am I dare to face the future?
In the end, I'd even forget about the past.

She called me,
telling me how much she understands my feeling.
She wanted to apologize to me
But what I wanted to hear is not "Sorry"
Its far more than that.
Something that you couldn't give.

Sometimes, I wanted to tell her.
What did you know? You know nothing!

I'm afraid to write when its dark
Because what i wrote will be much the negative part of me.
I will be writing my feelings of anger, hate, and despair.
Deep in my veins I know.

In your life,
I'm just the one who passed by your life.
We might still be friends but never more than that.

Now maybe you might feel that I'm something more.
But after this, you will feel that I'm just a "friend"

I hate myself for loving you.
Because I started to fake my smiles in front of you.
Do you understand me?
I don't think so.