Ming Rui

忘了我还记得

2011-05-23T13:37:00.000-07:00

时间，过去。
感情还强烈
但是，我要画上界限

谢谢你一路来的关怀，陪伴。
感激你对我如此慷慨。
今晚起，我要试着不再去想你，
不再去爱你。

就当那天相遇，是我见心爱的人最后一面
以后再见面，也不会用如此的心情去面对。

至少我们之中，还有人是幸福的。
就足够了~
希望往后的日子，多多保重。
我会守护着你 =)

yee~好累，睡觉！

你的幸福比任何东西都来得重要 =)

2011-05-13T13:03:00.000-07:00

一路走来点点滴滴，
我记得好清楚。
说过的话，许下的承诺。
还是很清晰。

快乐吗？好想知道，却又害怕知道答案。
哈哈

好久没看见你，开始想念你了。
你的任性，你的长发，还有最喜欢的嘴唇
好想见到你

无论任何地方，我都在你身旁。
这种坚决，无人可比 =)

Living life like no other

2011-04-20T13:31:00.000-07:00

Finally, after a long run
Things started to slow down a bit.

I caught a bad cough lately,
Which I think somehow hurt my throat.
It gets itchy sometimes.
I want to scratch it! Grr~

Recently started to get this feeling again.
My life is going to change again.
A new environment,
A new start,
A new feelings.

Perhaps it's better for me.
Unless it won't make me think too much again.
And yes, I still likes you.

Started to get thinner lately,
Maybe it's because of the tiring days.
Mom is going to be pissed off again~ Haha
I love you mom =)
Feed me when I'm back home XD

因该是

2011-04-15T12:33:00.000-07:00

我太过依赖了

我害怕失去，却不知道是不是拥有的

我小气，却发现自己好孩子气，好愚蠢

但是全都真正发生过

今天又犯贱了

多多包涵。

Small little sun on your small little palm

2011-04-08T13:20:00.000-07:00

Some people you can't tell what they're good, but that someone cannot be replaced.

Sweet memories, Bitter memories.
It is time to move on I guess.

You might stop, but time doesn't.
We'd just have to move on.

Mom and dad,
this is your son i guess.
Thank you for bringing this little mars guy to this world.
For the sake of all the people who knew me.
Hahaha, perhaps without me,
some of the sweet memories wouldn't have appeared.
Thank you so much. Love you both.

I know sometime
Time will take away a lot of things from me.
I also know
That nothing cannot be healed with time.

Sometimes when I'm alone,
I tremble in fear.
Thinking about the future.

Sigh~
But future is filled with possibilities.
With a little bit of luck and a little bit of hope
And A LOT of hardwork
Things that you want might actually came true.

Close my eyes,
Make a wish,
Future lies,
Within reach.

Say goodbye once more, and good night~

I've never regretted

2011-04-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

Today,
This place was found out.

I've never knew this day would come.

And how much this little beautiful garden of mine
Has been the most sorrowful place for you.

I thought I will never let you feel worried
I thought I will never let you feel guilty
But in the end, I've did it again.

We rather blame ourself sometimes
I just wanted to tell you,
You are not wrong.
Neither am I.

I never regretted loving you.
You are the next most special thing that ever came into my life.
Thanks for being in my life.
And this time, its not for this few years.
It's for a lifetime.

You will forever be my best thing that ever happen to me.
I don't care what others might think.
But you will forever be in the left side of my beating heart

Let's not make our promises last for one month.
Let's extend it for eternity.

There is a hurtful sentence in the previous post i know.
That I said I started to fake my smiles
Do you know why?
Because i don't know whether what i'm doing now is right.
Now everything is clear to me.
Maybe it's clear from the very start.

Dear XX, After reading this post
I think you will start to understand.
I promise you that i will forever be the right side for you.
When you ever feel down, hurt, sad
Or be it happiness, success or even failure.
I'm always right by your side.

Therefore, don't stop your footsteps. Keep going.
For I will forever give you the best wishes anywhere I am.
Remember that thing that i wanted you to do?
That you promised me when i answered that question?

Now i would like to use the wish.
"I wish you to stay happy, Always"

Had a long rest, back to blogging

2011-04-04T11:58:00.001-07:00

Leaving my blog for 4 months.
Because a lot has happened lately.

At last, I've made up my mind to tell her.
Even though I know what my endings would be.
I've promised her to be good.
She promised me to be happy.
We promised each other to let fate decides.

But what we really knew is,
We are never meant to be together.

Maybe it is because of my decision to stay with you
Until the very last.

And finally, this has already been the last month
I promised myself,
to be happy,
let her be happy.
Even though i can't keep the smile
But at least when we leave,
we might still be smiling.

Love is a desert without boundary
And i'm just one of the people who trapped inside.
There is a kind of love,
When we are neither able to pick up nor put down.
We let ourself to be sad
But in the end, we noticed that the one being sad is only ourself
We let ourself to hate,
But in the end, we noticed that the one we hate is ourself.

I don't know what i can't put down to be exact.
If you asked me what makes me so into her
I might have said, I just like her. There is no reason.
But in the end, we noticed,
We have all the reason in the world to give up.
Because you are in love with her.

Like what my friend has told me.
Flip a coin when you feel you can't decide.
It's not that the heads or tails that decide it for you
It's that when you flip the coin, the answer you wanted is already decided.

I did.
I can't let go.
Why not let love stops at the most beautiful moment?

Chance?
Future?
Let's not get so far my friend.
If I can't even decide my present,
How am I dare to face the future?
In the end, I'd even forget about the past.

She called me,
telling me how much she understands my feeling.
She wanted to apologize to me
But what I wanted to hear is not "Sorry"
Its far more than that.
Something that you couldn't give.

Sometimes, I wanted to tell her.
What did you know? You know nothing!

I'm afraid to write when its dark
Because what i wrote will be much the negative part of me.
I will be writing my feelings of anger, hate, and despair.
Deep in my veins I know.

In your life,
I'm just the one who passed by your life.
We might still be friends but never more than that.

Now maybe you might feel that I'm something more.
But after this, you will feel that I'm just a "friend"

I hate myself for loving you.
Because I started to fake my smiles in front of you.
Do you understand me?
I don't think so.

Felt bad for leaving my blog

2010-11-26T08:56:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry to my blog for leaving it behind all these times.
Been busy with moving my house and final exam.

1 months have passed since the last time i updated my blog.
The thing that i promised our miss Lee Chooi Ting before i left was to post something about travelling around the world.

I'm currently working on it and will post it before i make my way to Kuala Lumpur this coming Monday.

Last few days its been so tough.
Being sick isn't easy especially when you need to handle exams.
However, being around with people you can actually talk to isn't really that bad.

Today, I did something bad to my friend. Calling him to wait for me and follow me back to my house to take my things.

And after that I actually break the promise because i want to be with someone else.
Aww.. Sorry, I will give you something in exchange for being such a bad boy

Now, resting myself
Seeing her outside my room playing with her pc
Just the 2 of us
Its the perfect memory to remain for us.
Maybe we are destined to not be together but
It was fate that made us friends forever.

Hope the time you spent with me made you happy
Love you lots.

Things that missed out

2010-10-11T03:25:00.000-07:00

There are a lot of choices that have to be made these few days.
Different route leads to different future.

I can feel the need of getting good relation with someone.
Sometimes, you just felt that you don't belong
To somewhere, some place, some people.

So you have to choose.

Actually, I wanted you to come with us.
So that i can continue to tease you.
So that i can continue to talk to you about things.

But it doesn't seems its easy to talk you into it.

Another way round, I wanted to follow her.
But still, its a no good to go situation
Why did i still try?

I really don't know..
This part of me..
So.. JIN..

No mood to write much more.

Its the thing called dreams

2010-09-25T13:01:00.000-07:00

When i was young,
I remembered telling myself i was gonna be a doctor.
Which I am clearly lying.
Because that was what parents put in your mind.
Be a doctor! You'll be respected! You'll be rich!

But who really cares about that!
I told myself I'm gonna be Ultraman instead!

When I grew up, I knew that dreams aren't easy..
I go through the life of a students
and how i know, thats the most valuable thing that i hated once.
The days when i'm still a student at school.
Heart-throbbing

Now, I am a college students already.
20 years of meaningful life, passed just like ashes..
Slowly drained into misery
and now left with nothing but the will to carry on.

I need to take the path of a loner now.
I can't fall for anyone, just because i have not yet realize my dreams.
Not yet.
I wished i dreamt i was a billionaire.
For money has the strength to do something for me.
When the times come when money have no more importance any longer.

Thats the time when everything goes back to where it belongs.
Misery.
Times exchanged for money. And money exchanged for times.
Is it worth it?

Can only find out.. In the days to come
-END-

Trip to Balik Pulau

2010-09-24T20:35:00.000-07:00

Ah Yuan's house which is located in the mountain range, the view is pretty

Pulau Betong if i'm not mistaken, the beach located 10 minutes from their house

18SX.. This is Malaysian

The sunset at the beach, its after the rain

I've tasted a lot of good food that day thanks to my friends
Even though we wasted a lot of times in cyber cafe

A sharp knife of a short life

2010-09-21T04:18:00.000-07:00

I am obsessed with a song lately named "If I die young"
It was originally sang by Band Perry and then covered by Sam Tsui.

I bet everyone have imagined that what if,
They died when they're still young.
In the age where they are chasing their dreams.

This is the picture i took at the basketball court at my old school.
When I saw this and compared to the ones that i saw before
I find that, actually
I've noticed a lot of times that dawn falls at this spot here.
Just that when I am having fun with friends i didn't notice time passes.

But still~ life is about enjoyment right?
There is nothing in life if you can't learn to enjoy it.
I have a lot of dreams to chase
However, it is normal to play around sometimes =)
Well, at least not until this level

Brr~

Haha hope you enjoy life too~
Got nothing to update during my holidays since i sprained my ankle and have to stay home.. Sigh~ wasted!

The day before i went home

2010-09-08T05:03:00.000-07:00

今天，是好兴奋的一天。
因为明天就可以归乡了！

好久不见的家人，我好爱你们
好久不见的朋友，我好想念你们
我真的好累。。
有时候，有些事，真的无法一一的把它给说出来
有时候埋藏在心里的爱是一种最难受的病态
我不可以再犯贱了，我告诉我自己
这些事令我很累。真的。很累。

一想到回到家，就可以开开心心的过日子
不必再憋着感情把话全部说出来
所以我真的好想念你们。。
好像回家。。

Loves from above

2010-09-03T22:17:00.000-07:00

Lately, I fell in love with the sky.
You can feel how tiny you were just by staring it

Recently, I have attended a talk on cabin crew job.
I think the offer is fantastic.
1) You get to travel for free
2) Free travels for family members monthly
3) Basic salary more than 4k and subsidiary allowance during flight
4) Get to meet a lot of people.

Who doesn't want a job like this?
But, good things doesn't come without hard work
My sister, who was once a flight attendant says it was a tough job up there.
It doesn't mean that the offer is good and the job is easy.

Sometimes, I think that people should be trying
Even though it meant to change a despair in the end
But, at least you went through something in your life.
At least you have done something that makes your life worth to be remembered.

One day, if I became a cabin crew,
I would take pictures from all over the world.
Snapping all the memorable moments in life.
Maybe.. and maybe.. I can share it with you.
My future you.. I want to know where are you so badly

Even though we are thousand miles above the ground,
But our heart will not be apart even for the slightest distance

My new Ji Mui in KDU

2010-09-02T06:33:00.001-07:00

As i promised in earlier days, I want to recruit another ji mui into my list.
Therefore, I have chosen one of the best among the students
(Haha, like Malaysian Idol)
Okay,
Let us welcome,

Quah Kim Lay!

I've tried to talk to most of the classmates and none of them can really socialize.
In terms of chatting, I think our Ms.Quah here is very sociable.
Therefore, I have recruited her as my new Ji Mui
I have promised to share with her everything she wanted to know and vice versa.

From now on,
There will be 2 ji mui in my ji mui list:
1) Lee Chooi Ting
2) Quah Kim Lay

Hope this bond will never be broken by all means
And therefore, I bind this friendship for eternity.
What a good start to September~ <3

I found my life quite interesting

2010-08-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

It's a boring Saturday,
One of my roommate has moved out.
He didn't give us any goodbye or farewell
But he sure have left quite some memory for his smelly shoe outside my room.

Haha, well not gonna miss him =P
I'm not close with them anyway.
It's not like i don't want to get better with them
Just I felt that we aren't going to be that close anyway.
They have their times in work, seldom talks
Furthermore, I'm going to leave this place in like 3 months more.
It doesn't make any difference =|

There has been a lot in my mind lately,
Sometimes you just don't have that person to share with.
I want to share thoughts, future, opinions
However, it just doesn't work with everyone.
It works only with special ones.
The feeling is just awesome.

Special friends are :

Like the flowers in early Spring,
Like the ocean in the Summer,
Like the sun during the late Fall,
Like the first snow in Winter

Day by day, I might be chasing another dreams,
But I keep thinking about you all the time,
Like you're living inside of me =)

When you have times, appreciate it

2010-08-22T09:38:00.001-07:00

Times,
Do you still have it?

How much do you have left?

Sometimes I wonder if I had enough time

One day,
When we grew old
We will venture back to where we are in the past
By that time,
We shall notice
How time has passed and we never notice it.

The picture that we took and still kept inside the album
Is the view still as same as ever?

Is everything still the same?

When we walk past those youngsters in town,
Have we ever notice?
"Hey, that was exactly like me few years ago"

Many things in life is unexplainable.
Its same like the feeling you parting with someone important
Its unbearable.
But after a long time and you meet them back
You will never feel the same anymore

Sometimes it's important to care about something you love
And to never give up hope even when its the last moment of your life

Appreciate every single second that He has give you
For every second in your life is the treasure that you can never find

Wedding Dress

2010-08-20T20:28:00.000-07:00

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Copyright to YGTAEYANG

This song has been popular among my friends nowadays.
They complained to me that I don't promote this song to them.
Because everytime I listen to Korean song they will surely shoot me
So, why should I? =.=

But I wonder if they know the real meaning of this song >.<
Of course I do xD

About Ming Rui

2010-08-14T21:08:00.000-07:00

I notice how I have changed from my childhood until today.
Last time, I was a rascal who always do something stupid enough for me to laugh today.
Together with some other rascals who are almost the same
We chase our dreams in the boundary called life.

From a bad tempered, disgusting, bad talker
To a peace, lovable(they said), flirty talker
It has been a long way.

Ming Rui has been doing well all along the road to his maturity
Ming Rui never gives up to be a better person in life.
Ming Rui life has changed by the different places he has been to
Ming Rui life has been changed by different people that he knew.
Ming Rui has now become more than what he is few years ago.

Being called as a coward don't anger me now.
Because i know. I am now (haha)
There is nothing wrong staying away from trouble.
For I am no longer interested in winning an argument.
You can say I am old. I'm just not interested.

I think my mind has been getting older lately,
I am becoming a person who would like to enjoy life
Drinking kopi watch people argue.
Walk slowly even though I know I will be late.
Talk slowly so that I will not say anything wrong.

But still, I think the Ming Rui now is in the best of his years.
All the best to him too in the future =)

What is love?

2010-08-13T20:31:00.001-07:00

My friend told us during dinner
"当男人需要你的时候，你就要出现！不需要你的时候，就滚远远！"
which is translated as
"When guys needed you, you should appear! When guys don't need you, please disappear!"

And here started another war of the world.
Well, I in fact doesn't help both side because I think both have their reasonable part.

1)One is realistic because there is no such thing as forever love in this world.
2)One is devoted because they believe that they love their other half and hoped the same for them

As for me, I kept quiet. I know that I have no argument in this matter.
I am a peacemaker and will never involve in any of the arguments. =P

I think I would rather flirt around for the time being~
Because women are scary. I don't wanna bind myself so fast
And on the same table that day, Trae and I was the quiet and peace one

So i looked at her, she looked at me
Among all the bising bising chi chi cha cha
We are communicating among ourselves

There is still some pengajaran I would like to share around though
1) There is no such thing as FOREVER LOVE, stop watching anymore taiwan movies
2) Please do not take others for granted. If you want to love and care about someone, do it sincerely. Not like the quote you said. It shouldn't be! Buat malu lelaki!

Lastly, I am a peacemaker. Therefore, No arguments~ Boys and girls are the same. Love around, share around =D

Road not taken

2010-07-21T04:40:00.001-07:00

I still remembered what I have read in the books last time when I was still in Secondary School.

It's a novel and it contains a lot of stories about morals and stuff.

One of them titled :"The Road Not Taken".

For those who never read the story or forgotten about the story, I'll summarize it for you.

It is about the expression of the writer who took the action of becoming something that is different from what others want him to be. And, he is not regret on the path that he has decided to walk on.

In my case, I have been near to the end of my college life here in Penang, so I need to decide on the path that I should take in the future.

I was caught up in the freaking dilemma and it is hard for me to decide. Everyone seems to have their own path and have chosen their ways in life.

I am pathetic. Nothing more than that.

Thanks for the wonderful gift this year =)

2010-07-20T01:33:00.000-07:00

I received a gift today from 2 best friends =)

Even though they have already told me about it since my birthday on June, which when our college life restarts again, they missed the chances to give it to me so they give it to me late.

But it's okay, who cares even though its late for even 2 months right?

I always cared about both of you and believed me that I will always will.

Since it is gonna be a new post so I'll talk a few things about my birthday this year.

Well, I remembered it was the night of 22nd June 2010, I was at my friend's friend ( just know each other) house.

It was still world cup season and there were 2 matches on show that day.

One was US I think. I forgot

They gave me the surprise exactly at midnight when they are watching half time.

Sincerely here, where I never had the chance. Thanks a lot.

Another one is today, where I received a little package from 2 of the friends from college.

This is how the package look like. There is a letter with it too. And with a plastic of course but i got rid of it.

This is the content of the package, a polo tee =)

And finally, this is the content of the sampul surat

One way or another, I don't think birthday is anything great to celebrate, but with good friends and good ways I think even though without the cakes and the present, any birthday will be memorable. =)

In a new point of view

2010-07-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Now is 12.20, I'm having my Marketing and E-commerce quiz tomorrow

And probably to all who knows me well, I am not studying =)

At this exact moment, out of nowhere, i started to feel like I'm missing something

I started to miss those times I've had when I first entered the college.

The feeling of those nasty strangers with their nasty looks who has now became one of your friends

and

The feeling of actually wanted to touch the books just to impress myself as how far i can get

The most importantly, the feeling of losing friends as time goes by

There are many aspect and the word "losing" is too broad. So as for example in my situation

1) One of my friends, who had been my classmate for 1 year. She was a really nice girl and outgoing. But unfortunately, an accident took her away as she tries to climb her hostel window just to get the key in order to not pay the compensation of RM10 for the key. But however, the times we could actually spend together is somewhat limited. I am feeling so sad to hear about the incident. A life for RM10? However, I wished you eternal happiness for your life above.

2) 2 of the most dramatic roommates have walked out of school life and officially working so as to work their way to their desires (so as they said)! Well, one is already in KL, and he said his life is as boring. I do think that one day he could be rich or some sort as the people living in Venice of Perak is very very unpredictable. Another is now having his life on bed as he is sick and unable to attend to his job at Singapore. Seriously dude, when i heard about this, I was thinking :"how pathetic can he be!" no offense =)

3) The friends who I usually hang out with have changed. Many of them trust the word, "when times goes by, only you will know the person's true self"'. But however, the times that we have spent together is genuine. I never knew what will happen to us in the future, be it strangers or friends or even haters, I sincerely hope that none of us shall forget the time spent together.

People are not afraid to try again, they just afraid that they might get hurt again for some reason.

Anyway, I'm still stuck here and really having a lot of problems with my life. But never hates life. That's what important. (I guess)

New blog new start

2010-07-14T04:20:00.000-07:00

Today, I made up my mind to continue blogging.

Seems like after a long rest, I'm back to this place again

Well anyway, seems like this is the start of something new,

Should not talk much. Will need to do a lot of editing for my blog.

Hmm~ will update shortly